I’ve been on a deeply transformative spiritual journey over the last 2-3 years. Something I haven’t mentioned much about yet is my experiences in taking plant medicines (Ayahuasca, mushrooms, etc).
Taking plant medicine for me is like speeding up the process of meditation – it has opened my mind and catapulted me into new versions of myself.
If you think of the mind as a substance.. before plant medicines or deep meditation, the mind could be thought of as a hard block, like ice. The process of taking plant medicines/meditation is like allowing the block of ice to melt into water, to be free-flowing, and vast, to be open like the clear blue ocean.
And with this openness, your perception of reality changes. Things don’t look or feel the same anymore, because you can see them from a whole new point of view. It’s like going from once being a bird locked in a cage, and believing that the cage is your only reality, to then being freed and realising the vastness of life and the unlimited possibilities.
Things that you previously thought of as “problems” seem to resolve themselves, OR you don’t even view them as problems anymore. Every single thing that happens in your experience in life is happening FOR you, for you to gain something from, even if first viewed negatively.
And then the whole need to grasp onto life diminishes. There’s nothing to grasp onto. There is only this moment. You are only in THIS MOMENT, right now. So no need to worry about the future or keep thinking about the past. Just let go. Just be here and enjoy this moment in life.
It’s like you are constantly merging into the next, newer, more aware version of yourself. For me it feels like I have this subtle awareness of that higher version of myself, and intermingle with her, merging and morphing into her energy, until I embody her fully; I realise her into myself, and then the process continues to the next, newer version of Jaqui.
But then if I, or “Jaqui”, is constantly merging, morphing, changing, then who am “I” exactly? I am the awareness of it all. This is something I’m recently starting to realise. I’ve known this concept for quite a while during my spiritual journey – the concept of the “I AM”.. the observer, the divine presence.. but I’ve never truly got it, because I was always viewing it intellectually.. but now I FEEL it.
Meditation and plant medicines have helped me to experience this fact, and to KNOW it. I’m still at the beginning of this knowing, but I’m excited to expand deeper into it, and to teach others how to realise this same divinity within themselves.
You are SO much more than you realise ✨